zindagi heran hai

Zindagi kiu heran hai khud se ye saval karti rahti hu ..kaha par kami hoti hai life me kisi ko khush karne me Zindagi guzar jati hai par koi khush nai hota .mai bhi apni life se khush nahi hu muje sukun nahi hai ek mint ka bhi  mai hamesha dusre ko khush karne ke chakar me khud ko dukhi karti hu ...par khush koi nahi hota .....na Mai na koi or ....
Kya karu asa jo mai khud ko phale khush karo muje to apne liye koi rasta nazar nahi ata hai khush rahne ka .....pata nahi asa kiu lagta hai ki meri sari khusi mere hasbend se shuro un par hi khatm ho Gaya hai

Wo hasta hai to mai hasti hu 
Wo chup hota hai to mai chup hoti hu 
Wo bolta hai to mai bolro hu 
Phir meri life khud ke liye kya hai 
Jab ki mere hasbend ko hamse ek zarra barabar piyar nahi hai na use meri parvah hai .na usko meri zarorat hai ..na usko meri khushi se koi Mani matlb hai na mere dhukh par kabhi dhukh hota hai .na meri zarorat ko kabhi samjya hai .na meri filing ki kadar hai .21 sal se ye sab dekh rahi hu ..usko mai ek Bejan shy nazar ati hu .jiski ahmiyat bekar saman ki tarah hai ..phir bhi nai uske liye hi Marti hu ..kiu mai use do mint me chod kar ja sakti hu par mai asa nai kar sakti ..kiu ...phale to maa baap ki rusvai nazar ati hai .
Phir Allah ka khof lagta hai 

Baccho ka fuchar andhere me nazar ata hai .
Apne age phiche andhera nazar ata hai .

Kya ourat itna majbur kiu hoti hai 
Sari soch par ourat ke liye hi hai 
Mard kiu nahi sochta kiu asa
Mai har roz ek moot marti hu 
Roz khud se ladti hu ki mai apne haq ke liye bhi kiu nahi bolti hu 
Ajib kashma khash me Zindagi giri hui hai kya karu mai asa ki khud ke liye jiu koi rasta batai muje 
Allah meri zindagi ko asan karde 

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